Comment and New Look!

New look for my blogspot yey! It's just a simple dark page but I hope ya'll like it! I had a lot of messages about my comment thingy, they don't actually see it or follow it or they just don't see it LOL! Just because my previous layout don't have a comment thingy below so now I changed the whole thing and u can now comment at the end of the blog entry! It took awhile for me to change it because I was too lazy to do it but I got some time today so I did it! I still have the chatterbox handy on the side so if u want to leave me a quickie message u can use the chatterbox as well! Anyways thanks to you...yup! YOU who always read my blog! Laters! :D

E/S of the Day!

I woke up late like 9:30ish in the morning but Lauren was up for I don't know how early LOL! So I got up and gave her breakfast, you know the usual Corn Pops cereal and her a bottle of milk! Then I checked my Lancome Holiday Pallete that I recently got because I tried fixing it last night so I put it aside to dry up...yup I dropped it and 2 shadows shattered grrr I was heartbroken! But I did a little experiment, I did watched a lot of tutorials on youtube on how to depot eyeshadows and stuff and I came across to a video on how to fix or pressing eyeshadows back in the pan so I did that, but I didn't have a pressing medium to mix with my shattered shadows but I heard I can use Mac's Studio Fix + and I have that on hand so I carefully started to fix it, its harder than I thought because pressing it are more difficult most videos I watched they are round eyeshadow pans and they used linen and coin to press it but my pallete is rectangle shape so I cut a very stiff cardboard box and wrap it with a linen cloth and wallllaaah it worked! I checked this morning and do a little swatch to check the texture if u know....still pigmented and all and it looked brand new again u can't even tell which one got broke! So happy! So here are the swatches in my arm with no primer or base!


Then I went overboard of happiness and test it out on my eyes of course haha! I also used my new Avon cream eyeliner that my friend Vicky gave me from Airdrie AB that I got in the mail last Wednesday! I love the bent eyeliner brush that it came with! It makes it easier to use it! The cream liner itself is just OK, just because the liner got some shimmer so I prefer to use my Loreal HIP cream liner but I love Avon's eyeliner brush LOL! :)


No FOTD...too early to show my face on camera bwahaha plus I just got excited trying out my newly fixed pallete! Excuse the lack of effort...it's messy by just looking at the pictures...sorry!

Our Heartbreak

My life...our life (me & Lauren's) changed dramatically since August of 2007! How could I forget it, it was the start of my depression. Darkest days of my life! It wasn't easy for me especially I was 5 months pregnant! I found out my husband is cheating on me! Its not ok to be cheated on but its worst than u could imagined! I actually came face to face with the "girlfriend", I told her that I'm his wife that we will have a baby soon and the way she talked to me uhh her mother should be so proud of her! I don't understand... she's the one who was so mad and she talked all the BS in my face when she is the other woman! The car chase was no fun but I'm notorious when it comes to driving! I caught her in some residential backlane yelling/screaming at my face...she can't accept the fact that I'm his wife and she said its all my fault! That same night I was admitted to emergency...scares the hell out of me, the thought that I'm going to loose my baby! Luckily I'm just suffering early contractions which the doctors said that its normal! It got reported to my OBGYN and on my next check-up she asked me a bunch of questions regarding what happened and I can't help to burst bucketful of tears..I was emotional wreck so she prescribed a mild anti-depressant pill! I was fine for a month or two, living with a partner who u found cheating on you was a torture! I can't believe I stayed with him of all the things I discovered, from receipts of clothes to cellphone bill oh and not to mention a NEW cellphone, YES she bought them! Not only she's the other woman but she's a sugar mommy! She spoils my husband, from showering gifts to undeniable sex(?) Seeing all those things and confronting my husband made me so angry! He told me its not his fault, because he told her that they will stop their relationship immediately the day I found out but that could be a problem to her...she's the one making phone calls to the apartment and to their "secret" cellphone non-stop! The day came again, face to face with the "GF" the 2nd time was a huge disaster, I was almost 8months! I'm spying my hubby for weeks, I was depressed then, there is nothing I could do because I was pregnant! I caught both of them in the gym's parking lot! I was so mad that I want to slap that dumb b!tch! She yelled at me called me names but I fought back yelling at her and called her names...she was walking away in her car and drove away! While they left me all alone crying in the parking lot holding my pregnant belly, then I felt really sick in my stomach...trip to ER #2! This time it was dehydration, I was admitted there for 5 hours, consumed 2 bags of IV fluid was no fun! My family was too upset that they offered me to come home in my parent's house but I told them I have to think about it! Dec 7th 2007 I decided that enough is enough, I'm doing this for the sake of my baby so I moved out and left my hubby! Dec26 I gave birth to Lauren without my hubby by my side, it was heartbreaking but I stayed strong and sucked up all the pain! I look at my daughter for the first time was surreal, its unbelievable! All the thoughts rushed into my head...single mom? Divorce? financial support? Etc etc? I got depressed even more! First to 3rd month was the "sleepless" nights but day by day I was doing fine! Days go by I re-gained myself back up again but there are times that I just break down and cry! My family is the most amazing supporters in my life, they helped me even the roughest phase in my life and I love them so much!

18months later...I'm still trying to move on with our lives! Hubby is begging for us to come back, promised that he will change for the better! But trust is hard to get it back! He broke me in so many ways...he broke my heart, my soul, my life! But inspite of all that happened He's trying so hard to please us, he visits Lauren almost everyday and try to spend time with us on his day-off! He said that he will support us the best he can! But I told him that maybe its better for us to be like this for now, separated! We talk on the phone everyday and I share adorable stories about Lauren and we have a good laugh, its nice like that! When we go out just the 3 of us I felt that there is hope for us! Although we are still married we are not thinking to get divorce. I don't know if 2nd chance is worth a try but I won't expect anything, if we are meant to be...God will find ways to get us back together as a family!

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MAC-do!

Whatelse is new than going to MACcosmetics!


From left to right I recently bought JEST, NYLON (both in pro pan because it's cheaper) and AMBERLIGHTS (in pot, ding that baby from depotting grrr! u see?!)

This is my MACeyeshadow pallete! I have 11 so I need 4 more to fill up my pallete! On the top of my list I need HUMID but they are sold out when I got there bummer! Then CARBON, STEAMY and GOLDMINE! I am almost out of my DA BLING e/s (right corner) I always use this shade and I hit the bottom of the pan :D So what I got on my pallete right now are (from l-r) JUXT, TRAX, NYLON, JEST, MYTHOLOGY, BEAUTIFUL IRIS, CRANBERRY, SUSHI FLOWER, BEAUTY MARK, AMBERLIGHTS and DA BLING! I have NOCTURNELLE, EXPENSIVE PINK and FICTION in there pots but I will leave them just like that because I will not attempt to depot them anymore hehe its too much work thats why I prefer getting them in Pro pan form!

My funny-crazy-sex face! :P I guess this is my FOTD! I use my fave e/s DA BLING and SUSHI FLOWER with my VANILLA pigment! :D

Smile!

They all smiling at me! Ahaha! I swear to who made this mashed potato shape into smileys are genius! They are soo cute! I know, I know they are not one of the healthy foods out there to give to a 1yr old but hey once in while doesn't hurt plus she likes them! Her doctor will kill me ahmm...screw that doctor LOL he don't know that Lauren was eating french fries since 3months old and drinking beer since 6months old ahaha (jk!) Its not like everyday I'm giving my child one of these! They are yum! Have u guys tried these yet? Well go try them out!! They are delishhh! Even my 3 year old nephew liked them with LOTS of ketchup on the side! :D

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hauling!

I was sick for the past few days and I need to treat myself with something that would make me feel better so I went shopping! Bwahaha!


MAC @ The Bay:

- e/s brush 224

- e/s brush 217

- e/s in cranberry

- lipstick in viva glam VI

- pro e/s empty quad



Lancome @ Sears:

- eye pallete in starlette and stunning

- 2 samples of e/s quads *free

- whole bunch of skin samples *free



And @ London Drugs:

- Posh face powder brush

Whew it seems like a lot of stuff but these are all the things that I kind of wanting to get for a long time especially for the MAC brushes! The brushes are way expensive but they have awesome reviews online! And yes, they are my very first MAC brushes! I also bought an eyeshadow in cranberry and I'm liking it so far. I want to get humid and nylon but its out of stock...bummer! So I ended up getting a lipstick in viva glam VI and empty pro e/s quad! I had some gift cards that I got from Xmas that I did use so its not like I spend a whole lot out of my pocket! The Lancome eye pallete was from the holiday collection and its the last one so I have to get it plus everything is just so pretty even the packaging! And the sales associate gave me a LOT of freebies/samples so yeey!





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10 Things Can't Live Without

10 Things I Can't Live Without or things that matters.....

1. My daughter Lauren...she's not a "thing" but I can't live without her!

2. Blackberry...talk about portability, plus im a BB addict!

3. Internet Connection...i freak out everytime we have "technical difficulties" on our connection at home!

4. Computer...i'm in it almost everyday, oh ok EVERYDAY!

5. Camera...got to carry them around, i will never know when to capture those precious moments of Lauren

6. TV/DVD...i love watching my movies over and over again! same to Lauren she like to watch her kiddie dvds like a million times a day!

7. BearPaws boots/Uggs boots...both love it if only i could wear them in a formal occasions hehe!

8. Makeup...probably it won't be on my list right now because I can still go on without wearing any makeup but this past few months makeup is like my therapy *toinkkk*

9. Hoodies...i never realize my love of hooded sweatshirts/shirts till now!

10. Rings with diamonds(?)...my parents gave it to me so they have sentimental value plus they are expensive!

Brrrr....

In the past few weeks the weather here is always freezing to death cold! I have no idea how some people cope with this kind of weather! Everytime I go out with Lauren I have to bundle her up on her snow suit then cover her with a thick blanket and run to and from the vehicle to where we go so its a lot of work just to go around with a baby during winter time! Not only the temp is always -20s there is windchill too like up to -40s! Stand naked outside for 5seconds and u'll turn to a frozenstick person LOL!

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Crazy Excited!

So excited when I found out that Sephora is opening a store here in Winnipeg! Wooot! I was like wow...a month ago a buzz that Ikea will come to Winnipeg around 2011 but who would thought Sephora will open doors in May of 2009...yup this year, sooner the better hehe! So...now I believe in that saying "nothing really is impossible!" As I said on my previous blog that Winnipeg is just a small city, really small that almost every Filipinos knew each other LOL! So this boring city will not be so boring after all! =)



Maybe a DisneyLand here in Winnipeg 10yrs from now?! Hahaha I know I'm not pushing it but who knows...anything is possible right!?!

Coffe what?!

So this is just a random rant about this coffee thing that I got from a friend whom she thinks that it works for her to lose some weight! As you all probably know that I've been struggling losing weight for the past few years! I never had a problem about losing weight when I was pregnant because I didn't gain any weight, thanks to vomiting! After giving birth to Lauren all the weight came back in like 3months?! or maybe 2! But all this drama going on in my life I can't help it to just eat all the wrong foods (junk) ! So when she told me about Coffee King Plus, I was a bit skeptical of trying it! It was a bit pricey though! I bought the whole box that contains 2o individual sachets for $20, kinda works out to be 1buck each cup of coffee! The secret of this coffee as I search via internet was the Spirulina and Ganoderma Extract which are both natural and won't harm you...click the link over here for more info about this product's ingredients! It didn't say anything much about losing weight but its a good thing that all the ingredients are natural and also its a goood alternative of regular coffee intake which gives you caffeine and sugar.

Hopefully this coffee thing will help me out....this is the first time trying out a product that will help me to lose weight because I was this close in buying over-the-counter capsules/tablets you will find in drugstores or department stores or those things u see on TV! I didn't try any of it as I won't go that far because I can't even say/pronounce or understand all the words in it...ingredient-wise LOL! So I hope this thing will work out for me because its all natural! I'm loving the taste by the way! I'm not a coffee fanatic but its not a bitter coffee as I expected to be its just the right sweetness with a lil bit of cream taste to it so I like it so far! Taste is important to me as well, I'm not a fan of herb-y taste either! I will keep you guys updated if there is any negative side effects or any changes on my weight (crossing fingers)! Oh...now I can use my TimHorton's Cup that my friend Ann gave me last Christmas! :D